illusion of life...

This is kind of disturbing ….and really a confusing one too…I would rather consider this as an “illusion” … of life….

Here is an story I came across….
A girl loved a guy…sweet girl…never wanted to hurt anyone…always happy…and cheerful… and so caring that she would take the utmost care so as to not hurt any body in any sense.

And that guy too loved her…how much, no idea, but he cared for her too much. The only thing he was unable to do was to know what this girl’s heart wanted…from him. He never was able to know what went inside the heart of the girl, and what the girl expected from him…instead he made her cry a lot many times. Still the girl knew that the guy truly loved her, and so was always with her, no matter what…

But then one day, another guy, average kinda…came in this girl’s life…and he fell in love with this girl at the first sight…
He knew…that she was the one…and so he started dreaming of her…

Then he came to know about the person this girl already in love was…still he didn’t loose hopes…and he thought he would become her best buddy…the best friend…and all he cared for were her smiles.

This girl too got attracted to this guy…as she felt happy with this second guy…
This guy knew how to make the girl happy…as he loved a lot more…day by day…

This girl too was feeling something different for this guy compared to the rest… but she couldn’t help it as she was already in relation to one person…thou she knew that she wouldn’t live always happily with that guy…still she never could come out of the relationship…she believed she would hurt the first guy…and so she never came closer to the other guy…

But the other guy did all sorts of things just to see this girl smile, and he really became an important person in life of this girl.

One day, the girl asked that how would the first guy wanted to end up their relation, as it was not practical for them to be together…and told him about the other guy…

The first guy, thought that his girl was taking a practical decision…so he wanted the other guy as compared to some unknown for this girl to spent her life with…and the girl was relieved…

She told the other guy…that she would like him to be her life partner…and confessed her past to him…
The other guy , only wished for her smiles, accepted her and told her that he was so happy to be her friend for life…

Then with the passage of time, as they came near to each other….eventually they both fell in love…

Now the girl confessed her love for this guy, and the guy was on cloud nine…
But this girl never told this thing to the first guy…that she didn’t have the same old feelings for him now, and she was fully in love with the second guy…thinking this would really hurt the first guy…

The first guy still believed that his girl had taken a decision out of life’s harsh realities and she still loved him…and was with the other guy because of him, and it was his love only still prevailing in girl’s heart and he was responsible for letting her go to the other guy…

The second guy knew about the past and though he had won her heart by his love only, believed the same…but he had heard from the girl that it was because of the first guy’s decision…this girl could think of him…as her life partner…and this sometimes did hurt his feelings…yet he never let it out to the girl….cos he never wanted her to be unhappy…neither he wanted her to be sad remembering her past…

This girl told the other guy…that she didn’t had the guts to tell first guy…that she was now in love with the second guy, and was completely dedicated to him only…

This many a times bugged the second guy…but all he could do was to keep silent…never forced her to tell the first guy the reality….

“But he did got hurt on listening…that ..girl gave the credit to the first guy…of her being with himself…in his life…and not because of his loyal love for her…”

He wanted to win her love in return of his own true love…not on some other person’s recommendations…no matter whosoever it came from…these thoughts always made him stand as a looser in terms of love the first guy… and really doesn’t know how he should interpret of the decision of girl to not let the first guy know of their existing relation…and so amazing love they both share…he just keeps silent…

And the first guy…now getting married to someone else….still is in the mis-understanding that they both took the practical decision…and were still in love with each other…only living apart….

While the girl truly in love with the second guy…still holds the reality in her heart…of what matters to her the most…


Really I think life acts sometimes as a big illusion for us…and we don’t know how to interpret it….as we never know what is the true meaning of it…

i wish i could ride faster

it ws thrilling and amazing feeling....

this video i took from my helmet...and u can feel the speed i drove....

the wind was hitting me from front,,,still i love to cut through the chilling air...in middle of the road...roaring past other wheels...racing down the lane...full throttle...and i love doin it again n again...

the only disappointment is ...i wish i could ride faster than 103km/h...

guess time to get a more faster machine under myself...

i had the best new year's eve ...

They were together and in each other’s arms. They loved each other, smiled together. 11:55…11:56…11:57…11:58…11:59… and it was ther…12:00….Happy New Year…welcome2001…
The hall was full of greeting…hugs…and cheers. Yet I could not take my eyes of the couple in the corner….the guy was handsomely dressed while the girl was dressed so fine to make any heart sway…and they were lost in each other’s eyes…lost in ther own world…lost into love….

I just couldn’t take my eyes off them.
“oh god, when am I going to get my love in my arms. Like those two lovely hearts there in the darkness, even I wish to be with the one, the one that’s only mine……”
“Hey man lets go. Its late.” And I started walking down towards the exit…giving a last glance to the couple…who were still into one another.

“ 8 years…man I give you 8 years…that means 8 celebrations of 31st December, and you need to find your true love, or marry to your parent’s choice” I said to my heart, riding towards my home.

But one thing what moved me was that, I felt alone even in the crowd. “did I miss something? Or was it someone whom I missed?”
May be I missed Love!!!

That was 8 years ago. Eight New Year Celebrations have passed. Eight Valentine days went lonely. I was so alone every new year's eve... that many times I hated this world who had so much of love, but none for me. Or if it was, then when was the right time, to meet her, to touch her, to feel her, to kiss her…to love her?

Year 2008, 31st December, Ahmedabad, The Grand Bhagwati.
Right there , in the mild darkness, under those disco red lights , the Dj hitting those lovely soundtracks, and among the unknown faces, I could see a face, so beautiful and charming, dressed in light coffee top shining bright and lovely long skirt, white and sparkling in the black light…her hair falling on her soft cheek and neck with a sparkling chain adding a elite touch…and the charming smile…with those pink lips…giving a sweet smile…and those lovely eyes…giving me a stare…with lots of love in them.

11:55…11:56…11:57…11:58…11:59… and it was ther…12:00….Happy New Year…welcome2009…end of 2008..the most memorable one of my life…

She came close to me…hugged me…and the moment came to a halt filled with lots of love in it....and that... made the beginning of my new year the best one ever…

“thank you, god to gift me with so much of love and thank you angel to enter in this stupid guy’s life and love him like no one has ever done. Thank you for making my last year so beautiful and promise me that you will make my entire life as beautiful as never before.”

the days are over...and still i cant get out of them...

yeah, its over,...finally,,,the colege is over...the days are gone...the fun, masti and everything....being irresponsible, being happy..being with frnds,.... living everyday to its fullest...lookin for the reasons to go and sit in the colege...finding...those with whom you want to stay...all day..all time...go to canteen...enjoy the lectures...not even once thinking of studying...the hostel life...night teas and snaks...watchin movies before presentations...playing cards with the,. runnig late to lectures............................
its just over... and i dont want to get out of it...
i just want to stay...here only...with those i feel to be loved and cared...to be happy and to cherish every moment...

its all about how you think

Arthur Ashe, the legendary Wimbledon player was dying of AIDS which he got due to infected blood he received during a heart surgery in 1983.

From world over, he received letters from his fans, one of which conveyed: "Why does GOD have to select you for such a bad disease"?

To this Arthur Ashe replied:

" The world over -- 50 million children start playing tennis,

5 million learn to play tennis,
500,000 learn professional tennis,
50,000 come to the circuit,
5000 reach the grand slam,
50 reach Wimbledon,
4 to semi final,
2 to the finals,

when I was holding a cup I never asked GOD 'Why me?'.

And today in pain I should not be asking GOD 'Why me?' "

Happiness keeps you Sweet,

Trials keep you Strong,

Sorrow keeps you Human,

Failure keeps you humble and Success keeps you glowing,

but only Faith & Attitude Keeps you going...


an excellent article that i came across...and it really made me think...
whatever this meant...i really had a turnaround...

Positivity is like a sugar in coffee!!!

Strange title, I guess but I couldn’t think of anything at this moment for this one. Recently I have come across many friends of mine who are so influenced by their negativities….that there coffees are turning out to be more soar than sweet. And it really is a challenge to fight against all the negative air around you and still remain the cold cloud of positivity.
And I do have to face such negative attitudes every now and then. It really annoys me that people so soon leave hopes and start talking negative, even downshadowing their own capabilities. What the hell goes wrong into their heads.

I know many of my friends, who are equally capable like me and not only that some of the closer ones are much better than me. They got such a great personality and abilities, still they never show a feeling of pride on themselves. And they keep talking modestly that they aren’t capable enough… cos they think that if they boast about themselves…they will look overconfident…and a failure at such times will make others laugh on them.

I just want to say to them, why do you worry so much about what others think…they are busy among themselves about figures out what we are thinking about them…and so stop bothering and “be practical”.
Here I would like to mention…infact thank someone. Ya shes a girl and very good friend of mine. She has many layers hidden in herself. Now these two words “ Be practical” got me reminded of myself of my older days…and the credit to her, she is so practical in her life…takes each difficulty so easily…tackles them so nicely…even if shes gets in trouble…it just takes her a while to get back to normal. Shes smart and intelligent, got the edge over others in everything…and then she lives every moment to its fullest. No matter what, but she cherishes her life.

And I really learned a lot from her. Recently I had lost my self confidence…I had just stopped being true me and lost trust in my abilities…I was shattered off my confidence…and once people who talked high about my attitude… saw me in an helpless and sad person , like a sword which lost its shine.
And then I came across her thoughts, analysed myself and thought why am I acting this way. I haven’t lost anything…just a few hiccups in life doesn’t make me a looser. And there I was back again..to my old day…confident and positive…attitude of self belief…ready to take on anything…and ya I am ready to face the challenges that my future is going to throw at me. I don’t wanna be left behind just to sobb on my failures. I would rather smile and accept my inabilities and let my true capabilities enhance.

And this is the same message I would like to impart…to those who think they cannot. Man, if you can yell so much about your inabilities…and waste so much of energy…why can’t you spend a little of it on boasting about yourself, about your capabilities.

“If you think you can and if you think you can’t,
both ways you are right”
so why waste the time, singing the sad songs and playing the trumpet of failure. Believe in yourself, think of what you can do, and try to identify your capabilities.

Building a positive attitude doesn’t come in a day. Its sometimes takes a whole lot of years…to make our mind a positive thinker. And believe me, I had taken a lot of pains doin that. It really took a hell out of me to develop a positive attitude. And I am proud of able to attain it. It helped me overcome many of my shortcomings. And I feel happy now, as I no longer dwel with my inabilities, I constantly think about whats possible for me, next.

And friends, really start practicing the positive mentality, and try to avoid the negativities around. And soon it will be doing wonders for you.
At this point you may argue that what about the different problems faced at each and every moment of our lives. Well my answer to that is “ the best solution to problem is not to have the problem at all. Why the hell do you think of the problem as a problem, instead take it as a challenge. Its just like some monster we would see sometimes in our nightmares, nothing real about it. Be optimistic about the solution, and stop thinking about the failure. If you donot do anything, that would be the failure, but if you do atleast a bit, you really did something, and so you can solve the challenge too. its just a matter of being optimistic”

“optimism” is the first step of developing the positive mental attitude. If you are optimistic, you can definitely think about winning. Pessimists are never heard of talking about achieving. So guys its upto, which side you want to be.

And then the next step is “ believe”. Yes I believe. Its too easy to say, but too difficult to make it possible. I believe in god, everybody had said this always…how many of you have actually seen him. So I don’t believe in god, but I do believe in ‘life’…and existence of life is because of some might power…which is known as GOD! Similarly in every facets of life, if you think that what you think is right…than YOU BELIEVE! And be firm on your beliefs…because the power to believe gives you a power to fight and prove yourself true…not to others, but to your own beliefs.

Here are some of the self tried techniques, which you may apply in your life, and may be you can develop the positive attitude too.
- if you feel negative, look around the situation. Are the ‘facts’ on which you base your pessimism correct? Try to make a positive attitude shift in every situation.
- Keep a daily thought diary. It should help you learn which situation provoke a negative or positive reaction. Regularly re-read it and trace your thought patterns and see to it that there are more positive thoughts.
- Ask yourself, why are you thinking negatively? Are you frightened of future or what may happen in life ahead? And then think how can you change, for what you think is surely going to happen, there is always an alternative choice of doing things.
- Use positive words. Try to eliminate use of negative sentences and thoughts.
- Learn to handle negative emotions and work off the bad feelings with practice. Exercise-mentally and physically. Calm yourself in difficult situations and relax, focus on it.
- Take credit for the good things you do, and turn your bad things as mistakes and pledging not to repeat them.
- Make each time and day to do activities which you enjoy. Indulge yourself with good and positive things. Life doesn’t mean to stop, move on.
- The more meaning you see in life, the easier you will find it to be positive. Spend the time thinking about why you are born? Why you are here wherever you are? And what you have to do?
- In the end, smile! That’s the best thing to do. Smile and make others Smile. (even if you can take someone to a sip of coffee or offer a chocolate and make them smile, its worth of a lifetime!)

So friends, life is short, and you have everything to do. Stop crying and take every moment to its fullest! Be positive, be happy!

That’s the Max’s way of life!!!
That’s Maxitude !!!

Am I really biased?

Recently there was an allegation…ya I would consider as an allegation on me…that few persons termed me as a biased person. I don’t treat everyone equally…I show more empathy towards few leaving the other aside…I don’t take others for a ride as I take a few…I don’t spend money on people close to me…or I spend money for the ones whom I like to be with…I give treats to only a selected few…and for the rest of them I just perform formalities…specially in the case of girls…I am blamed to show my concerns for only a few of the girls…

All this and much more is being heard by my ears…and its bugging my head off! What the hell do these people want to say…and who are they to say… whatever they told about me…I would say isn’t that applicable to them too? how many times have they considered me as their close friend…and how many times did they invited me for any special gathering…that they got such right to speak about me?
I had always considered everyone around me equal..and as the time passed some of them became so closed to me…that I consider them as one of the important part of my life…while the others who took me as mere their friend…I gave them the same back…just a friend. And then, the same are speaking such sentences about me. what am I ? a whore…whom anybody is free to f**k away…then u people kiss my a**.

For such people I would like to ask this…how many times have you shared with me…your happy moments? How many times did you called me when I needed someone the most? Or did you ever even invited me just to have a sip off…then how the hell can you acclaim that I have been biased to people other then you.

And I don’t give a damn when saying that I am biased. Yeah, I am biased…to those who showed a little concern for mayo…think of me atleast once in a while…and never forget that I am one of their good pals…not mere a friend who gives them a treat every now and then, takes them to movies and gives them joy rides. These “few” for whom I live and feel happy when I can do a bit for them is what makes them special for me…and for those whom I don’t do anything…shouldn’t you people stop shouting and look at… yourself… why the hell I don’t care about you…

When I entered this department…I didn’t know anyone…and now there are few…for whom I wouldn’t hesitate doing anything and everything…
I can’t be everything to everyone…and certainly I don’t want to be just something to someone…I would prefer…being…everything to some one…and something to everyone…

so those who think i am biased and not caring enough for them, just let it be that way...it would be to difficult fot them, once i let my mouth open and screw their egos in public..." live your own lives and let me live mine...or keep bugging me and i make you pay the price..."